Lasting moments of peace

Can I see the sky
like you see ice in
summer?

I can stare at the things
around me
and feel quite happy
that I am in a place
I chose to be.
But that does not dispel the feelings
locked inside me.

I breathe and let it go.
The breath is but a silent reminder
I am alive
and here to stay.

Can I remember the songs
that I wrote in your name?
but then I forgot
'cause I have lost
my voice.

So I eat from a bowl
of summer fruit
to freshen.
and move to beats that I can alone hear.

I do wait upon the shore.
For what,
I am completely unaware.

EVANESCENCE NEW SONG!

I love the new track. It hits strait home. I CANNOT wait for them to release the new album already!
This single is so close to me.. Feels like I've written it. Amy is simply amazing.
there's just somethings I never thought would speak my heart... but she has. She had said the words I would if I could sing them in such a beautiful one!

And it's inspiring for the fic as well!
Since I'm writing Shadows.. one of the chapters is Definitely going to be based on this song! Its going to be wonderful!
Have to add.. This song is just.. Me.

I guess

I leaned into your embrace.
Can it feel this good?

I guess I could want to.

Your eyes spoke like
sin-kissed stars.
They sparkle like jewels
in the silent sky.

The trees ripple with the
caress of the wind.
"Will it rain now?" they ask in sighs
that splash across the wind
in wave after wave of dust that
courses thro my dark hair.

I can count the swarming bees.
"Bees? its the middle of the night"
But its spring, right?

The rain tumbles down
as it flows down my skin,
my lips are sealed.
I spoke too soon.


I can shiver. I am not alone
but I am lonely.
I feel a fuzzy warmth inside my chest.
Its not what you said.
I believe it was myself
that held me close
as the dark engulfed my being.
My sight became blank.
No it was brimming black.
I stayed silent as sobs bubbled under
my throat.

My body began shutting down.
Hypothermia.
You won't die, I hear myself say.
You cant.
I won't let you.
As If I am an outsider to my self.
I love the face that I can be two beings at the same time.

and barely be aware of it.

something burns my skin.
the dark reduces.
the light begins creeping towards me.
Her long nailed fingers crawl over,
spider like,
sting me whole.
Acid.
It burns light.
Bright light.

Did I open my eyes?
I wonder.
the placid background of the sky.
The red ground.
alive.
ow confusing that two beings form
one universe.
Do I do the same?
Hide one?
but the universe does not hide.

Where can I?
How can I?
Why should I?

silent words thro sealed lips.

Did I open my eyes?
I never closed them.


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things you never said

I can roll back into my bed now.
Your eyes float about in the universe..
Like planets and sight for the rest of the beings

I want the sky to fall into the earth
won't it be like glass?
perhaps it won't crack
It is the sky.
And the tears it cries brings
joy to all.
The sparkle is like diamonds.
While you sleep it cries.
Into the beautiful soft breeze.

I like it when I am awake
and the lights from the passing
cars flash across the ceiling
They don't know someone watches these
shadows move as they sleep
Tracing patterns and binding meaning
together the music
of her radio.

The painted night
is like teeth sparkling
in the dark as a dentist
tinkles around with a hook
Or is it sparkles from the millions
of sunglasses stacked as I walk
across the footpath towards and away.
I can see my pant reflected in the unseeing eyes.
so deD ARENT THEY!!!

I lean back into the sheets and close
my eyes.
I tire of these visions.

I want to hide you away
from the whole world.
Nothing can want me to give
my piece of heaven away.

I know the softness
I know now what it feels like
my moment of peace.
I long for it now
and You say you have
to give it a thought.
I know I should
but I can't.

How do you stop from a thought
a memory
I could live in it.
and you don't want to ruin it.
You want to see the sun rise.
I see it as well
but the glaze is different and
I know that I have an ache
in my being.
I long for the sweetness
and the warmth of
the morning and
the evening when you held me there.
The sun was dancing over the water..


It's not sometimes,
it's not often,
it's not that I can stop it
but that it's forever going on,
it's going on in circles of thought.
Anything will lead me there.
Anything.

I want to buy lip-gloss,
and some make-up.
that might fix my face,
but you fixed my heart.

How often do we sigh
waiting upon the winds of time
to come and change that hand of fate.
But know I've always been
until now the one
who rushes, who cannot wait
and even now is writing words
of Impatience
I was born that way, I'd like to know that
Why wait for the time to come?

But now I know as the bells of "DESTINY" toll
I know my heart is singing along.

The dirt from my eyes was washed away,
the clenching of my heart is yet again
released.
I thought yes. This is the calm I seek.
I was happy in my temporary stability,
Satiety. Saturation that it turns into
in a matter of days.

As if my prayers have come true.
Late, None the less, they are true.
I thought I tire of waiting for the man
that will create that world of ice and spice
and call the halt to all the storms
ragging in my head.
I have to hold back a chuckle. It has does
everything but that.


And to seek the peace of the silent knight.
For he waits as the sincere guardian as I
rest.
I have stopped my voyages to the other side-
they delude me with faltering hope
and dreams that have very little to hold in
real life.
I wil come again, travel and experience again,
when I am strong enough to break the chains on the doors
that lock away a piece of my very own Paradise.

How is it that I long for it and fear the light now
that is shines brightly on me?
its like the aliens we are afraid of.
The ones that we know are stronger, better,
faster, yet they are just a silent figment of our
fertile imagination.

If I could choose an end for the universe,
a place where the world ends, the emptiness
beyond is perhaps what I seek.
For I know nothing of it. Yet again I seek it.
Shall I find anything?
Shall I find anything I shall be afraid.
That we are all aware of.
Or is it that our whole universe is like a
tiny world in a glass globe that
sits in a monstrous laboratory?


Ah, I have deviated yet again.
This is the stream of my consciousness
that branches off and stretches across my sky
like Milky Way.
Pure and glittering.
I've waited for that perfect night when I'll see it all.
Yet the same sky that Galileo saw that I see,
and we are, still, alas, Worlds apart.

HELOO

Hi hullo.
I know you forgot my name.
But I can never forget you.
I may be wallowing in self-pity,
But any way who gives a .
I hardly want you
but I still want
my happiness back.
I am selfish,
I also know that's why you probably hate me,
but that doesn't matter.
You can run away far.
I still got one more moment
staying here.
Thank you very much.