thoughts in lonliness

No where to belong
trapped in an endless
chasm
of time
and in perpetual
thoughts
of truth
and existence
in the sole
clamor of the heart
I
reel.
Reeling into the
scar-less sky,
wind can peel back
my eyelids,
deftly.
I watch
what's stark
reality
with painful closeness.
Super intense
death
rush
fall.

I can't break the fall
I can't
breath
but the water's rising
falling right at my back
and falling beyond me.

Soaking without warmth.
The chill cuts
like silver Katanas
in the golden sky,
tinted with the pure metal.

Singed skin,
purple wound,
blue blood.

Cold as the sky
water so close,
but never enough.

In a moment
I'm fooled.
In a moment,
I am sated.

A long second
black satin on sharp nails
steel against threads
Ripping apart
what were the
threads of the world.

I unravel.
Like a crochet doll,
each stitch, crossed over
comes undone,
Colour Burst.
RED
BLUE
GREEN
YELLOW
PURPLE
WHITE
SILVER
GOLD
MAROON
OPAL
AMBER
BLACK.

Depth.
I cry.
I need more depth.
I'm going to fall soon
and crash into tiny baubles.
Little droplets
of crystal
in the shades of rain.

wash away the earth.
I crash away as I mourn
splinter
and spark,
Lit over the ground,

Burn in the anxiety
rise to the sea in a
fevered blur
to die out
is to
smolder.

Rain and fire.
Beings bred in
the world of the unseeing eye.

People of the undergrowth,
those of the tears,
bear in your heart
the truth cruel.
To sooth thy soul
is a crime.

Status update by my heart

My heart is beating so fast!
Its like I ran a mile,

Leaping over the boulders
and fences
trying to block my way.

Feels like I've been
drinking way too much
fizz,
My heart is on a high,
an energy blast!

It feels like I have been
working out for 110 minutes
and like my heart will bust if I continue!

I can feel a catch of pressure releasing.
I can feel the bubbling thoughts going over flow,
and that my breath is coming in
short
going out in
spurts.

I had its price,
my thoughts had
taken a toll
and now they
have healed too
like a little journey
has ended.

Feels like I ran a mile,
I know I had been running for so long
so fast and so far,
but now I have to still so
suddenly
that I know I'm skidding.

Yet this awareness alone is
making me steady.

Lasting moments of peace

Can I see the sky
like you see ice in
summer?

I can stare at the things
around me
and feel quite happy
that I am in a place
I chose to be.
But that does not dispel the feelings
locked inside me.

I breathe and let it go.
The breath is but a silent reminder
I am alive
and here to stay.

Can I remember the songs
that I wrote in your name?
but then I forgot
'cause I have lost
my voice.

So I eat from a bowl
of summer fruit
to freshen.
and move to beats that I can alone hear.

I do wait upon the shore.
For what,
I am completely unaware.